Here's the thing, I'm a total pussy. I look at the state of the world, watch the news, talk to friends and coworkers, and all I really feel is dread at the future of this country. Maybe it's the rose-colored glasses of nostalgia, or just the ignorance of youth, but what happened to the world I remember growing up in? Is this complete distrust and disgust with American government a new thing, or was I just ignorant of it? Speaking of ignorance, I seem to recall learning about evolution in high school, without the "benefit" of disclaimer stickers on my science books or lawsuits against my teachers.
So, yeah... I'm pissed off and scared shitless. What do I do about it? Zip. I put up a Ron Paul sticker on the side of my website. Woo-hah. It isn't much... it is the least possible effort.
What do I do when they turn my driver's license into a RFID National ID? Do I accept something that clearly and profoundly goes against my core beliefs? Do I reject it and make my life incredibly difficult as a result? I'd like to believe the latter, but I know it is far from likely. I know myself, and I'm a pussy.
So, what will it take? What has to happen for me to stand up? When we're all sitting through Two Minutes' Hate, putting on our best show for Big Brother, do I do my best to play along?
I don't know the answer... or maybe I do, but it is too depressing to admit. Have you ever watched Children of Men and wondered if maybe, in some way, you wouldn't be happier in that kind of world? Have you ever wished for things to go so wrong that you have no choice but to throw your life at some cause that means everything to you?
I've got many goals for the new year. Get into shape, physically and fiscally. Write more. Appreciate more. Live more. All good things, and things that I want and need to do. Important things, on a personal level, but when all is said and done, pretty much irrelevant to the world at large. Aren't we all, though? Why do I care? Why don't I care? So on and such as....
The first step is admitting you have a problem, right?
At least Ron Paul kicks ass....
Paul/Kucinich '08? Yeah, I'm guessing reality will be a little bit less inspiring.
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